So I felt like shit all yesterday.
Tired, mopey, couldn't persuade myself to do anything, couldn't think of anything I actually wanted to do. Couldn't concentrate. Got pissed off at little things.
I didn't even feel like cooking or eating, which means I must have been bad.
And after a less-than-satisfactory conversation with Michael in the phone last night (he's coming back tonight), I ended up in tears because I felt so fucking miserable.
Haven't been there for a while.
And although I don't feel quite as bad today, I'm definitely not well, and the old fibro pain's kicked in. I guess it's the weekend catching up with me - bastard fibromyalgia can do that. That's why I'm depressed and "out of it".
So I texted Harriet to ask if I can audition another time. Sounds pathetic, but I can't cope with it today. In this mood I won't sing as well as I can, and if I do that I'll cry. I'm not auditioning if I can't be me.
The humble Mallard
1 day ago
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Wise choice, Anna. If you're going to do it, you should do it the best you can. That doesn't sound like today.
ReplyDeleteGet some rest. Feel better.
I didn't do it. Harriet's kindly letting me audition next week instead.
ReplyDeleteI managed to struggle at choir rehearsal, not being able to concentrate, so no way I'd have been able to give it my best.